this is not what we expected.

Tonight, driving home from work, I reflected on the last 4 years of my life and remembered all the times that I was a complete dick. All the stupid shit I’ve done or said with/to girls. I’ve cheated on every girlfriend (except one and I never considered/thought about doing such a thing to her). I have been called an asshole, dick, immature. I’ve had a girl tell me that she was so mad at me she wanted to kick me in the balls, but she wouldn’t because she wants me to have children one day, because she thinks they’ll be funny. I’ve had a girl go behind my back and tell another girl I had hooked up with that I had shared with her details about how horrible I thought it was, only because she was mad at me for being honest. I’ve had a coworker confess that he had heard stories from a girl about how much of an asshole I was, to which he claimed I was/am not an asshole and that I’m really “just funny and cool”. I’m not posting this for anyone really other than myself, because sometimes you just have to let these things out of your head. Do I regret some of the stuff I’ve done. Absolutely not. Those were formative years. I feel bad for any guy who spent his college years being “nice”. If you’ve taken the time to read this and gained no pleasure from it, I apologize. If I’ve inspired/enlightened you, well, you’re fucking welcome.